Today I suddenly feel melancholy.
Here’s a question with no single answer: What exactly changes your mood from positive to negative? In my case, I can hazard a few guesses:
- Poor food choices
- Physical weariness & backache
- Worry over outcomes
- Questioning my decisions
- Polyester clothing (sounds like I’m kidding, right? I’m not)
- Hormonal rollercoaster
- Shorter days and weaker daylight
- Never-ending humidity and heat into September
For the last 6 weeks I have been certain that we are meant to relocate to Kenyon, to build the last quarter of our lives in a smaller, slower town. Everything has seemed to line up in our favor to make it happen. Then last Friday afternoon, our buyer fell through. No, it’s not the end of the world. No, that doesn’t mean we won’t find another, possibly better offer in time to fulfill our obligation to purchase that house. It simply means we need to continue living here as though we don’t live here. Ideally, we would be the sort of people with few “things” and the habit of putting them away immediately after use. Ha.
[You! I know you’re out there, doing exactly that. Living a fastidious life of no clutter.] Much as it sounds freeing, that is not US. Don’t draw the wrong conclusion. This is not a trash house and we are not hoarders, but we DO have a LOT of STUFF. It happens when members of your family “go away” (endless scenarios). Their “Stuff” becomes your “stuff”. Much as you want to make their Stuff “go away”, you cannot bring yourself to do it. Emotional baggage makes it impossible. Eventually, you get accustomed to working around it. Soon, all that extra “stuff” becomes invisible.
Invisible, that is, until strangers begin walking through your home. Suddenly, you see all that “stuff” unveiled. It becomes “CRAP YOU DON’T NEED”. This is when you’ve reached the Point of Burden. This is where you dump all that “CYDN”.
Unload it all at the Point of Burden and sail away. Empty cargo hold. Let the hoarders root through it all and drag it to their homes, never to be Swiffered again. The End.
I feel better now. Thanks. ~kb.xo